7 Vacancy

What most annoys me is that you don't know I'm annoyed. I don't know if it is that you don't care, or that you really don't know how it feels like. Both of the answers scare me. I'm giving up. Sounds mean, sounds heartless — but feels even worse. Every day that I say it's going to be our last, you suddenly appears with a warm act or sweet words. And as stupid as I am, I cave. I always cave. Because I trust too hard, I believe too easily. You are quite the opposite. It doesn't matter if we do talk or not, if I do love you or not. It matters for me. I need something and for a long time you made it. You made the whole way to get to me, but then you left. I came after you, you didn't want. You came after me, I caved. Of course. But now, I see how you never wanted to be my friend. It doesn't matter who you are with, or if you are with someone at all. You just don't care. I know you have feelings, you just dont let them out and that scares me. Don't worry, it's my fault. I'm guity to want you to do something you didn't want to. And I won't force you anymore. The worse part is that I remember it all too well. You made me see how independente I should be. I just wish you could be honest with me. I hope you find a way to be yourself someday. I believe you.